Wag pilitin ang ayaw

Wag mong pilitin ang ayaw. May dahilan kung bakit ayaw ng isang tao o ayaw ng mundo ang gusto mo sanang mangyari. Minsan, dahil sa gusto mong masakatuparan ang iyong kagustuhan nakakaistorbo ka pa ng ibang tao oh di naman kaya'y nagagawa mo ang sa tingin mong hindi mo magagawa dati. 

Ang bottomline... Wag pilitin ang ayaw. Wag pagpilitan ang ayaw ng mundo at ng tao at wag ipagpilitan ang sarili sa mga taong hindi naman nakikita ang kahalagahan mo. Ito'y isang katotohanan na nararanasan ng bawat isa kaya huwag mag reak sa mga nakasulat dito. Hindi dahil nasulat ito ay may pinagdadaanan na ako ngayon. Meron man o wala, ito ay hindi mo maiiwasan. Kaya ngiti na lang. Haayaan mo siya/sila at ang mundo. Gawin mo na lang ang sa tingin mo makapagpapasaya sayo! 

At saka, ngumiti ka. Walang mawawala kung susubukan mo. Mas lalo pang lalapit sa iyo ang magandang enerhiya kapag nakangiti ka. :)

Basta, huwag pilitan ang ayaw at ngumiti na lang. :) :) :) 

Occasional conversation

I love it when you get to talk to a friend, changing ideas, perspectives and understanding things in life. Occasional conversation. 

I miss my friends. I miss the people who are close to me and I miss the feeling that you have friends around, ready to back you up. I miss the conversations I had with them even though the greatest contribution I can give or do is to listen. Well, the topics we usually talk about are socially relevant issues that I know they are experts of. I try to add insights but I let them do the talking since they're really good at it and saying what I know could mean the destruction of all. HAHA. These are the types of conversations I'd love to hear and go back to over and over again.

But you know what I like about having occasional conversations? The spontaneity and the feelings expressed  and shared without any or with less boundaries. It doesn't always have to be about social issues. Sometimes, your views in life and your experiences matter the most. Actually, I like that topic more as long as you share it with your 'friends' or with people you're trying to know more of (with a little holding-back since you are just starting to know them). I'm hoping to get a lot of this, especially now when I feel like I am on this (problems, issues) by myself. 

I don't want occasional conversation. I need them.

Perks of being a wallflower

ENYE had a great night as we successfully ended it with a movie. The premiere night was a success and the movie was just... EZRA MILLER!!!! Such a great actor!

While watching the movie I had this feeling that I will tell and open my life to someone I am close with, SOON! I know that it will not be easy but I am just finding the right time. Well, this isn't the first time but the feeling's just overflowing that it needs some sharing. Basta! 

And oh! if ever I'll be reincarnated (if this is actually true) I want to be like Charlie, a wallflower (a total opposite of me). Why? because this is what I deprived myself of : being unnoticed by people, being observant and being quiet. Yes. I would really love to turn my life to this right now. If only I can make this happen overnight, I would be the happiest person on earth. But oh well, hindi naman mangyayari bigla bigla yun. It's a process, a lifetime process. Wala lang, just a thought. This reminds me of a line in the movie:

"You cant choose where you came from, but you can choose where to go from here." - Something like that. 

Something to think about... Now, back to work!

What if?

What if pa delay na lang kaya ako? 

I mean, really... malapit na ako sa punto na sasabihin kong "hindi na ako masaya sa ginagawa ko." Kung marami lang akong pera baka kumaripas na ako papalayo sa kinalalagyan ko at pumunta sa kung saan tahimik, masaya at may FREEDOM!

God, please give me reasons why I should be happy doing all these things. A serious call for help.

Takot akong...

...buksan ang aking mga mata at makita ang akong mesang puno ng ligaya!!! I just cant explain the feeling I have right now. I feel so used.