Can I really do this?

Im not saying that this is the sole reason why I failed in certain things. I know that it is really me who is very dysfunctional. I dont know. There is something in this semester which makes me so lax and do things haphazardly. Twitter has been my friend for several years now and I have been active for the past few months. But I think it is doing me no good. Well, this is just another way of saying the I want to limit myself in spending my time in the internet and to tell you honestly sometimes I do non-sense things in net. Yes. Twitter and Facebook have something in common - they all made me sit my butt off this freakin chair (for long hours). I really have to be productive and spend my time more wisely and by that I mean less Fb-ing and twittering. #hiatus

And can I just say... the reason why I am doing this also is becasue I flunked our midterm exam in Geog 1 and that's like what?? Geog 1... I mean who fails in that subject anyway? Oh i know who... Me who is very 'petix' (or in other terms - relax) this sem. I am not saying that this subject is just easy as abc or 123 but really? I have to fail in this exam. OK. Call me GC (grade conscious) or whatever but normal student wouldn't say "OH.. I GOT A FAILING MARK ON MY EXAM.. OK... I DONT CARE~!" when they experience such... unless you're not normal. ANYWAY, I really have to do something bout this. I need a solution to solve this. I need action now.

Ok, enough of ranting. I will still probably spend time with of course 'the internet' but it would be more of blogging and if I'll be doing a more serious stuff, perhaps acad related. Thanks. At least I vented enough of my feelings and hatred (to myself) tonight. Tomorrow will be a new day. That's for sure.

I just clicked the enter button and hoping to see you on twitter more or less two months from now. Thanks! :)

Banning myself from all the things you can think of

For some odd yet valid reasons I decided to ban myself from a lot of things and 'A LOT' means banning myself from all the things I used to have or love and from all the habits I used to do. Why am I doing this? basically for two reasons: (1) To be better (2) to explore other and new things. This isn't easy, I tell you! But sometimes, we really have to get away from our comfort zones to test our selves and to come up with a better and brighter solutions of some sort. So anyway, that's basically what I am doing to myself right now.

First ban - no use of twitter. for how long? As long as I can keep myself away from this social networking site. reason/s? to learn how to not hurt myself even more. drama shizz. No, the real reason is because I'm fed up of the fact that I am spending more time on the computer doing nonsense things than spending it to a more fruitful and useful deeds. In line with this banning, I terminated my Formspring account and froze my karma in Plurk - two of my accounts where I put the most humor-less thoughts I have in mind - a waste of my time.

Second ban - no earphones for a week and it started last Monday. Reason? Well, I'm a music lover. I love listening to music and the sounds it produces... but I always plug my earphones almost in to my ear drums - almost rubbing my brain that it penetrated my skull first! Anyway, the thing is I should lessen this habit because in the long run it will do me no good. I dont want to get deaf at the age of 35! I still love music though!

Well, these are the two most prominent bans I obliged myself to cling and obey to right now. The good thing here is that I am coming up with good outcomes! :) I'll just be happy for doing such crazy rules and not be sad for banning myself from all these. This too shall pass! I'm still thinking of what other 'bans' I have to follow so as to test myself. Normally these are things that I usually love doing or actions that are becoming a habit. Do you have anything in mind? Share please!